My jealousy is eating me alive. I can't believe how even you saying one of their names and I just quake with anger. I hate it. Oh my gosh I hate it so much. Is it because I am actually in love with you? Is it because I just am jealous you have best friends other than me? I just want to be better. I can't handle it anymore. You say I am your best best friend so why don't I believe it? Why do I feel like you say that just to make me shut up. I literally sound crazy, like I can hear the crazy but I can't stop. I think this crush might be deeper than I thought.